Let me start by stating that I am not a Pollyanna...
I am by nature an optimist
I lean towards sappy
I am very much a family gal
I befriend for life
my ties are strong
I defend my beliefs...
(I can be stubborn)
I have not always been in a happy place
I went through a patch of poutiness and darkness in early menopause
I felt profound sadness
and didn't know why
I spent many years tending to the needs of others
working here to keep the home fires burning
working at school
my life was fast paced
and I was in constant
fight or flight
I put my own needs aside in a corner
I would ignore them
I felt that all the other things required of me were of a high priority
one day I felt very blue
laden with a heavy burden
I had questions and no answers...
I went through the motions of work
balancing the cheque book
weeding the garden
and I felt
something was amiss
I read self help books
and settled upon the book
by Sarah Ban Breathnach
which was instrumental in my healing.
I found myself
taking time to get to know what I liked and enjoyed
honour and nurture
That was quite a few years ago and I have never looked back.
I have grieved the death of both of our fathers
supported 2 family members with cancers
have had to find my own way
and not get bogged down with negativity.
Some simple things that make and keep me happy are:
love of the ocean
the fresh salt air
the sound of the lapping waves
The waterfront walk
not far from The Bungalow
I can sit and ponder
and look at the view
breathing in beauty
The ocean changes with the tides and weather
the colours can be bright or grey and dull
it can be warm and calm or stormy and cold.
as long as I am dressed for the weather
I am happy to be walking
There are so many simple things that contribute to my well being
and most of them are free
Hunting and gathering
things that I do not set out to look for...
seem to find their way into my gaze
and I am pleased
and often surprised
out of the blue
significant when made by the giver
Arts and Crafts candlesticks designed and crafted by darling son
in shop class at school
made of oak
with copper tops
and only pure beeswax candles can live here!
I adore and honour beeswax
the warm and gentle light
and that all those wonderful industrious bees co-operated to make the wax.
I use these often
and when I light the flame
I take a moment to reflect and give thanks.
I love a phone conversation
with my BFF
it can be a short or long call
sharing life and events
checking in to see how she is doing
what might be troubling her
what her family is up to...
the sound of her voice
checking in and connecting
it's what we do....
of 12 weeks
whose smile can light up a room
she is such a sweet little girl
who has entered my world
and given me such immense joy
that it is hard to describe...
I would love to see her everyday
just thinking about her puts a smile on my face
my brag book is full!
I know that life has many twists and turns and I have no idea what is around the next corner for me...
but I do know that how I react to these events
and the tools that I employ to get me through the rough bits
are key for me.
More another day.....are your thoughts of gratitude?
So much greatness....in unexpected places.
Hugs from the Hostess