Do you ever say something without thinking?
I try very hard to filter my thoughts and not blurt out everything that comes to mind.
I had a rather awkward moment with a co-worker who blurted something very unkind and embarrassing to me.
It was said in front of 5 other colleagues and I was so embarrassed that I looked around the room from face to face to see if anyone would come to my aid.
No one did and a couple of people laughed....
perhaps nervously?
I wanted to bolt out the door and run.
My legs would not move,
I was gobsmacked,
and stuck at a loss for words...
Struck Dumb!
The event re-played in my mind throughout the day and into the evening.
Only silenced by watching TV,
The Batchelorette season opener with lovely daughter.
This morning a couple of my colleagues who had overheard the comment approached me and asked how I was feeling about it and apologized for not supporting me at the time.
They felt badly.
Now that I have thought things through and discussed the rude event with others I feel a better sense of clarity and have some time and much needed perspective.
The speaker of the unkind words has a checkered past history of doing this with almost everyone on staff.
I am relieved that I am not the only target of these nasty barbs.
(security in numbers!)
"Hootie"
made by darling daughter
to add to the box of toys here for the lovely Miss Isla.
Who by the way brought sunshine and light with her on Mother's Day visit.
Patterns are few and far between in my wardrobe.
I have several dresses in patterns which I wear to work, for errands, shopping and dining out.
this dress has a wrap feature built in
chris cross over the bust
I am knackered tonight
my day has been fraught with autistic uncertainty
some days are like that.
I have been full on
so I am putting my feet up
breathing deep Yogic breaths
making mental notes about all the things that I am grateful for...
Mr. HB drove up island today to see a lucrative client
he had the top down on his BMW
and after clocking many kilometers is home safe.
Hi Honey!
Pepper was in a cuddly mood when I got home so I have had lots of kitty cat love
I have leftover roast beef and am making beef dip tonight with a salad
easy peasy...
The sun is still shining and it's light outside
I have a great book at my bedside
(The Post Mistress)
we have fresh running water
the house has a roof
it's warm
I am alive
and
aware.
I work with some pretty amazing people
we have fabulous kids at school
and
I love my job.
How was your day?